I have been engaged for almost two years to my Fiance Sam. ( I realize that the accent mark is missing, and to be honest I just don't know how to insert it, and to be even more honest I really don't care.) We have been dating for almost 7 years now. We couldn't be any more different. I'm loud and never seem to run out of things to talk about, and he is quiet and a man of few words, This works for us--- I talk and he listens-- or at least claims to. That doesn't mean that I don't have to tell the same story 3x or repeat the same sentence over and over again until it sets in for him. This is probably because I really DONT EVER STOP talking. He doesn't know when I am saying something important or just speaking to hear myself talk. I don't blame him for this, but it can get frustrating sometimes, This brings me to the next fact about me. I am extremely impatient, I have been since I was little, or at least that's what my mom tells me, A perfect example of this is when I take my dogs outside to go to the bathroom, If they haven't done their business in 2 minutes I'm already over it, I find myself getting awkwardly irritated, Like take a shit already!!! I am sure my neighbors have overheard me talking to my dogs like, "Hurry up, I have to go to work..I don't have time for this." or "OMG are you kidding me you have walked back and forth between the same two spots of grass for the last 4 minutes pick a place and squat already." They probably think I'm totally deranged and frankly I don't care.
I used to really care about what people thought, like way too much. I used to let it eat away at me, and consistently tried to alter myself to be the person that people wanted me to be. Luckily I grew the fuck up. I realized that no one is perfect, People might want you to believe that they live these perfect little lives, and have every little thing under control, but let's face it-- life is hard, and if yours is all rainbows and butterflies then you aren't truly living life to the fullest, I mess up constantly, and usually it's my mouth that gets me into the most trouble. I speak before I think, I have uncontrollable word vomit. My mom always says that I take things a step too far, like I see the line and I fly over it going 100 mph. I can't help it- I am impulsive, and unfortunately this characteristic carries into more aspects of my life then just my mouth. I sometimes overspend, occasionally over drink ( I'm a 26 year old girl still trying to truly find myself...who doesn't?) I over analyze situations that I should just let go, I always have to have the last word, and I watch way too many hours of trashy reality T.V.
I promise I'm not all bad... I work super hard, I love with everything I have, and I live life like I could die tomorrow. I stand up for what I believe in, stand up for my friends even when I don't necessarily agree with them, and I see the beauty in everyone and everything, Even when I was a little girl I understood the importance of being a good, honest, strong, and loyal person. At three years old I told my mom that, "it didn't matter how pretty you were on the outside if you weren't pretty on the outside." I believe this to be more true than ever. A person ugly on the inside completely takes over what we see on the outside, I hope to one day make a difference in the world. I know that this sounds completely cliche- but if I can make a difference in at least one person's life I will have met my goal. I love helping others. Children, the elderly, and animals. I have a soft spot for all three.
Well I just got back from my trip to Jamaica, and really need to start thinking about winding down, and going to bed. I hope you enjoyed my first blog post now that I have talked about myself throughout the entire thing, and if you didn't then that's fine too- we are all entitled to like what we like and if you don't like what I have to say then BYE FELICIA:) Just kidding but not really!
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