This post is going to be a little short because honestly I am sick to my stomach after watching humans destroy one another today.....
I can't believe what I am witnessing on the news and social media right now. As I sit here and type brutal riots are taking place throughout the streets of Baltimore, Maryland. Now before you think I'm ignorant; I do understand that something like this could occur, but what I will never understand is why we, the human race, allowed it to come to this. In the last 60+ years people greater than you and me have been making great strides in trying to create peace and equality among all people. This goes so much deeper than just the color of our skin. People have been trying to improve the moral between all different groups of people, African American's, Homosexual's, and even women. Let's face it....there is still segregation occurring in all different aspects of our lives, Same sex marriage is still not legal in many parts of the U.S., women on average are still making less money than most men, and people from all different races and cultures still view other groups different from them with a closed heart and mind. I ask you this...why are we still allowing this to happen?
I am not saying that what occurred throughout past generations is okay. Because it's not. It's horrible. No one deserves to be treated like an outcast or treated unfairly because of the color of their skin. But it is NOT just ONE race in particular that continues to allow both racism and discrimination to continue to exist today. We are ALL guilty. There are Caucasian people killing African American people, African American people killing Caucasian people, Caucasian people killing Hispanic people, Hispanic people killing Asian people. Again, the point is is that just because one person from a particular race or ethnic background does something horrible to someone from a different race or culture doesn't mean that all people from that particular group are just like them.
Let me tell you something that it took me a long time to fully comprehend, LIFE ISN'T FAIR. There is always going to be someone smarter than you, prettier than you, richer than you, and more successful than you, and more importantly, different than you, That's what makes this world so beautiful. We all come from different walks of life, We have all experience different struggles, We have all had our ups and we have all had our downs. We have all experienced happiness and we have all experienced sadness. Instead of feeling sorry for yourself, and creating hate and animosity, let's lift each other up. We should help each other be the best we can be. We should come together and celebrate our differences, Not long ago I was discussing the hateful acts of racism and discrimination with a close friend of mine who happens to be Hispanic, El Salvadorian to be exact and this was what I said, "When I see people I don't see color, I see people for who they are, How they carry themselves and how they treat others." I don't care if you are Black, White, Purple or Blue. If you respect me, I'll respect you, and even if you don't respect me I will never allow myself to stoop to such low levels, like the ones I am currently witnessing, It is disgusting and there are people rolling in their graves right now. Open your eyes, your hearts, and your minds.
I'll leave you with lyrics from one of my favorite songs by Damian Marley....
There For You
Vexation of spirit is a waste of time
Negative thinking, don't you waste your thoughts
Verbal conflict is a waste of word
Physical conflict is a waste of flesh
People will always be who they want
And that's what really makes the world go 'round
Unconditional love is scarce
You see you gave precious life to me
So I live my life for you
You see, you've always been there for me
And so I'll be there for you
So here's a little information about the girl behind the computer... I first want to start off by saying that I really do know how to write, but this isn't supposed to be a educational grammar book, this is my blog. My posts are going to be written in a conversational manner. I might misspell words, or misuse a comma or semi colon, and even use curse words... Imagine that???? Advice- if this is going to bother you then please keep it moving. So now that that's out of the way here's my autobiography. My name is Caitlin Hicks. I grew up in Centreville, VA or as people like to call it NOVA- the 703. ((REPRESENT)) I am currently residing in a single family home in Manassas with my Fiance, my cat Bella, and my two Husky puppies Trigger and Maple. I know what you're thinking..... TWO HUSKY PUPPIES? The answer is yes, the first one was a joint decision between my Fiance and I, the other....well I love her and I guess that's all that matters, They are my pride and joy, and if you follow me on Instagram you already know this.
I have been engaged for almost two years to my Fiance Sam. ( I realize that the accent mark is missing, and to be honest I just don't know how to insert it, and to be even more honest I really don't care.) We have been dating for almost 7 years now. We couldn't be any more different. I'm loud and never seem to run out of things to talk about, and he is quiet and a man of few words, This works for us--- I talk and he listens-- or at least claims to. That doesn't mean that I don't have to tell the same story 3x or repeat the same sentence over and over again until it sets in for him. This is probably because I really DONT EVER STOP talking. He doesn't know when I am saying something important or just speaking to hear myself talk. I don't blame him for this, but it can get frustrating sometimes, This brings me to the next fact about me. I am extremely impatient, I have been since I was little, or at least that's what my mom tells me, A perfect example of this is when I take my dogs outside to go to the bathroom, If they haven't done their business in 2 minutes I'm already over it, I find myself getting awkwardly irritated, Like take a shit already!!! I am sure my neighbors have overheard me talking to my dogs like, "Hurry up, I have to go to work..I don't have time for this." or "OMG are you kidding me you have walked back and forth between the same two spots of grass for the last 4 minutes pick a place and squat already." They probably think I'm totally deranged and frankly I don't care.
I used to really care about what people thought, like way too much. I used to let it eat away at me, and consistently tried to alter myself to be the person that people wanted me to be. Luckily I grew the fuck up. I realized that no one is perfect, People might want you to believe that they live these perfect little lives, and have every little thing under control, but let's face it-- life is hard, and if yours is all rainbows and butterflies then you aren't truly living life to the fullest, I mess up constantly, and usually it's my mouth that gets me into the most trouble. I speak before I think, I have uncontrollable word vomit. My mom always says that I take things a step too far, like I see the line and I fly over it going 100 mph. I can't help it- I am impulsive, and unfortunately this characteristic carries into more aspects of my life then just my mouth. I sometimes overspend, occasionally over drink ( I'm a 26 year old girl still trying to truly find myself...who doesn't?) I over analyze situations that I should just let go, I always have to have the last word, and I watch way too many hours of trashy reality T.V.
I promise I'm not all bad... I work super hard, I love with everything I have, and I live life like I could die tomorrow. I stand up for what I believe in, stand up for my friends even when I don't necessarily agree with them, and I see the beauty in everyone and everything, Even when I was a little girl I understood the importance of being a good, honest, strong, and loyal person. At three years old I told my mom that, "it didn't matter how pretty you were on the outside if you weren't pretty on the outside." I believe this to be more true than ever. A person ugly on the inside completely takes over what we see on the outside, I hope to one day make a difference in the world. I know that this sounds completely cliche- but if I can make a difference in at least one person's life I will have met my goal. I love helping others. Children, the elderly, and animals. I have a soft spot for all three.
Well I just got back from my trip to Jamaica, and really need to start thinking about winding down, and going to bed. I hope you enjoyed my first blog post now that I have talked about myself throughout the entire thing, and if you didn't then that's fine too- we are all entitled to like what we like and if you don't like what I have to say then BYE FELICIA:) Just kidding but not really!
